Questioning Faith

This week is Easter week and I strongly feel the urge to write about this.

Since I met (and fall in love) with Jesus in the age of 13, Easter has always been my favourite time of the year - a week smothered in His extravagant love and grace.

I grew up in a Christian home and I do love Jesus wholeheartedly. When Andrew was diagnosed with AML, one of the questions that people asked me was this: How can you still believe in God when this happens to your brother?


My answer is always be: How can you not?

Yes. Cancer sucks; and there is so many other pain and suffering that are so, so horrible in the world that made my heart feels like its twisted like pretzels.

But in the midst of all these, all the pain and suffering in the world, how can you face this without believing that you are loved beyond measure by the One who created you?

We were meant for Eden. We were created to be loved and to have that "evening stroll" with Jesus (or for me it's gonna be sunsets at the beach. Can't wait!).

Humanity choose sin; and the wage of sin is death (Romans 6:23)

Jesus didn't come to fix us. We are beyond fixing. We are so broken and frail.

Jesus came to redeem us.

He came to give up hope. Hope for an eternity where there will be no more weeping.

I have no idea how people can walk a cancer journey without faith.

When I receive the news about Andrew's diagnosis, I was in so much peace it was ridiculous. Peace that trespasses all understanding.

Peace in knowing that God's got this.
Peace in knowing that whatever happens we win - on earth or in eternity.
Peace in knowing that we are loved by God; the Maker of Heaven and Earth.

My understanding of pain and suffering can be sums up here:

Suffering is caused by sin. We all have sinned and lost His glory; but Jesus gives us hope. For for the future - here and in eternal perspective. He makes our journey on this groaning earth easier; by allowing us to live loved and whole. Without that hope, we will fear death. If not, death is simply leaving the party early - for a bigger party in heaven!  (stole the last line from my hero, Kara Tippetts who is now partying with Jesus)

So no, I won't lose faith. The truth is, I am closer to Him more than ever. I cling to His grace and His love everyday.

And His grace is always, always enough for me (us)