The One Where I Wait No More

These past few days I have been intrigued by pictures and writings on Instagram about the "do it now" campaign. Maybe because it's still January and people are still writing their resolution. I've read motivational quotes about it so many times but somehow this time it gets to me.

Maybe I'm getting old. Meh.

I think I'm pretty good for the carpe diem stuff. I love having fun and I do (purposeful) crazy things. But at certain point of my life, I would just stand in that moment in time... breathing it in and questioning myself.. "what have I done so far?"

Have you ever seen a movie and you get so frustrated at the character you start screaming and yelling on the TV? If you do this in an actual movie theater other people might start yelling AT you though.

In Psalm 139 David said that all of our days are already "ordained by Him". He sees the final result. The final construction of our lives. The corners of the ripple effects of the obedience and disobedience. I wonder sometimes when He feels like yelling at us because we are too scared and frightful to step in. Maybe that's why he wrote "fear not" 365 (or 366?) times in the Bible. 

So, I have decided to stop waiting. Stop being afraid to do things. I am taking the leap because God is on my side. And I just realized that there is one thing scarier than fear itself.

Regrets.